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wondering what the rest of us were up to on our lake powell trip?

I have been doing a lot of thinking. A lot of soul searching lately. It is something I look forward to doing at Lake Powell. When I know a trip to the lake is drawing near I secretly hide away ideas, topics and feelings that I want to explore while in the tranquil environment of the lake. While surrounded by the  beauty  of the red rocks and green water, while my kids need very little from me, while my phone and email and instagram are not working and I am tuned into my soul. I stop. I think.

I act as more of a food and sunscreen station for my children. They stop in every hour or so for refreshers and then move on to much more exciting activities.

so as i sit in a well of self reflection, I open up that secret hiding spot and unleash the things that have been weighing on my heart and mind. I take the time to look around and think. Where am i headed? How are things going? What are my happy points? What keeps me motivated? What is driving what I do? And then I repeat each question for each of my children.

Since I was a little girl I have always become introspective at Lake Powell. I remember bouncing around on the boat in a storm and questioning my faith in God. If I was going down on this vessel how would I meet my maker? Who was my maker? Later in my teenage years I would think about boyfriends and friendships and my next school year that loomed only weeks away. Now the lake is a place where I think about my children, my marriage, my faith, my family, my personal life.

in these moment on the lake I thought a lot about this blog and what it represents not only to me but to my audience, you dear souls.  I am still trying to figure out my voice.  What do my readers like the most? Do you like hearing about my personal life?  Or do you think, “shut up and show us some clothes woman?”  This little pond of self reflection in my brain is an odd place to be, although I think every blogger I know has faced it in their  mind too, a place where you have to really take a good look at yourself and what makes you authentic and real.  How does one do this without being called narcissistic or self indulgent? I guess for me because this blog is all about balance. I think mostly about my readers, my audience and what you come here to find, however, I must be authentic and genuine to my own soul at the same time.  Sometimes that means adding a personal touch to my posts… and showing an authenticity that is not always found in the fashion world. This outlet has been such a creative blessing for me. I find such peace and excitement in working on The Blue Closet as it fulfills all of my creative and mental needs. Photography, graphic design, fashion, my family, my children, my life all rolled into one place that represents how we live. So you want to know what I did, I hid under a hat, sunglasses and 100 SPF with my toes dug into the red sand and a book in my hand watching my kids enjoy something I enjoyed so much as a kid. Oh and I though a lot, did I mention that?

what was the rest of the group up to? shenanigans i tell you. pure crazy shenanigans. just how we like it.

We started our trip in a little city in Utah called St. George. My best friend text me while I was there and said “I had no idea you were going to spend 3 days in St. George. What in the Lord’s name does one do in St. George for 3 days.”  I laughed out loud. St. George is the perfect place for Californians to stop on their way to Lake Powell. Only 2 hours past Las Vegas it has gorgeous red rocks but more importantly some of my husband’s best friends. We caught up with them and their darling brood of boys. We swam at our hotel pool. We ate continental breakfast, jumped on the beds, got our nails done, went to Costco, saw a movie… nothing groud breaking but so so fun because it is just you and your kids and you are making your own choices and feeling very grown up.